yes another one lol

you are sitting there
staring at a spot on the wall
i'm looking at you
i see you lost in thought
your face contorted
inside you are screaming
MOMMY! MOMMY! help me please. HELP ME PLEASE! mom..
I'M TERRIFIED MOMMY! MOMMY!
i'm terrified
mommy..
i see you lost in thought
desperately pleading
fighting yourself
fighting
struggling
losing
slowly giving up
slowing down
giving in
you're done you can't go on anymore
you look over at me
i'm looking at you with a blank face
no emotions
nothing so as to not confuse you and yours
you just look back at me
eyes glazed over
not really here nor there
i want to shake you
but i let you alone
you are lost within your thoughts
thinking so lowly of yourself
screaming and cursing yourself
inside you are writhing in pain
i want to snap you out of it
to tell you that you are not all those horrible things
you are not
but i cannot do such a thing no matter how much i want to
because you already know the truth
but you refuse to see it
instead you put yourself down
you tell yourself everyday
repeating the words over and over
you're a little broken record
i want to tell you that it will be ok
that it won't hurt anymore
but you have to come to terms with yourself first
and i can see it in your face
you're afraid
you go back to staring
this time at a spot on the wall just past my face
i know that inside you are screaming
begging for help
for something to cling on to as you are sinking
MOMMY! MOMMY! help me please. HELP ME PLEASE! mom..
I'M TERRIFIED MOMMY! MOMMY!
i'm terrified mommy..
i see you lost in thought
desperately pleading
fighting yourself
and i just sit next to you
put my arm around you and hold you close
you relax a little but you do not lose your stare
you're still guarded
lost within
your pain is visible
honest and palpable
as i watch you staring at the wall